…
Are you up yet?
Coming.
I need my hair done.
Do you think?
Hello, can you give me your address please?
- What time'll you be back? - I'm not sure.
- Will you be late? - No shouldn't be.
I've been trying to get hold of you all morning, Una.
- I know. I'm sorry. - Will you be in this afternoon?
I'm taking mum to the doctor now. I'll let you know.
Hope she feels better. See you later.
You will be asked a number of questions
by the solicitor who is in the court room upstairs.
After each question, you must answer into the camera.
It that all clear?
- Can you give him a message? - Who?
Ray.
Can you give him a message from me?
That is completely out of the question.
Ray?
Where did you go?
Why did you leave me?
Ray, can you hear me?
- You spying on us? Are you lost? - No.
I'm looking for Ray. Do you know him?
No. What's he look like?
What's he about my height? Young, good-looking, yeah?
This man.
Nah, that's Pete.
- Pete? - Yeah, he's my boss.
Should be around here somewhere.
- Pete! Peter! - Yeah.
- Can you take over, please? - Yeah.
Come this way, please.
Okay, in here.
Can you close the door?
- I don't want the door closed. - Close the door!
How d'you find me?
- How d'you get here? - I drove from where I live.
Where I still live.
- What do you want? - To see you.
I can fucking believe you drove here because of a photo.
Why don't we just go outside, okay?
You can say whatever you wanna say, outside.
- What? - Are you allergic to me?
- Okay, fuck this. - Don't go.
Fuck this. You stay away of me, you hear?
Stay away, you need help.
Ray… Ray!
I don't even know if it's you.
If you're her.
- I am, of course I am. - No, I didn't know that.
- Yes you did. - I didn't recognize you. I still don't really…
- Your face went white - You could be anyone.
Couldn't you?
I mean, you could be…
anyone. You could be a journalist; your hair is different… reporter?
Could be anyone.
How many other thirteen year olds have you had sex with?
None.
Do you want to see my birth mark?
You kissed it.
…or what you promised on the beach; a life together just you and me?
None?
Are you sure?
- Hi. - Hello.
Where are you headed?
We're going to Europe, just me and dad,
and then we're going to catch a ferry.
Yep. Dover to Calais, and then who knows?
- Have a lovely time. - Thanks.
None.
Just me.
In that room.
You're smiling, you've forgotten.
Yes.
Yes, I had.
What did you expect?
If it'd been six months later you'd be on the sex offenders register
"Ray" would be on it. You wouldn't be allowed to forget,
you wouldn't have a new life.
- I served my time. - 4 years for what you did to me.
My dad couldn't believe it.
He was never again was the same. He died a few years after.
- How? - He fell.
Tripped down some steps.
He thought of you were his friend.
He tried to find you.
He knew where I was for the first 4 years.
He wanted to hunt you down and kill you.
Hey, gimme that!
Jesus.
You thought I'd come to kill you
I borrowed this from your dad. Can you give it back to him?
You changed your name. Is that difficult?
Random. Picked it out of a phonebook.
Peter…
Peter what?
I can ask outside.
Travelian.
Travelian…
Peter Travelian? Where the hell did you get that from?
- Under "T". - Peter Travelian? Are you fucking serious?
Does that… command respect?
Okay.
What about the photos you took of me in your house?
I got rid of them, I burned them all.
I've seen those websites, those poor kids.
Never.
10, 11, 12 on beds, sofas…
They are sick bastards. I was never one of them.
Is everything alright, Pete?
Yeah its all good man.
Peter and I just talking.
…leave you to it
I was never one of them, you know I wasn't!
Do I?
They all called me that. The other prisoners, the guards.
I've been spat on, I've been beaten up, I had human shit put in my face.
You know what I've…
I don't know anything about you, except that you abused me.
Didn't you?
- Didn't you? - Yes, but…
There's no "but".
I was never one of them.
You were my neighbour's daughter, not a target.
You were looking at me.
I always used to wonder; if I hadn't argued with my friend…
it could have been her you chose. Could have all happened to her, not me.
If you don't know what you did, then I'm not going to tell you, right?
Where's Lea?
She went home.
Una…
I didn't choose you.
It's a beautiful day; a smile wouldn't kill you?
Should we call the fire brigade?
You'll be bored out your mind here.
I've got boredom protection.
I want one.
Give me one.
Go on.
You'll get me in trouble.
How many people were at that barbecue?
There were 10 or 15 people there, right?
Why?
Because… I had shorts on that day. I had sh…
Yeah, they laughed about this in court…
That you wore shorts? What, in court that was your defence?
If I've been aroused, if I had an erection,
- If I had been turned on… - Can you hear yourself?
I stood there next to you, drinking my beer, in those shorts
I would have walked away, I would have sat down.
Look; a person knows if they are aroused by children,
because they're always looking to be near them,
to lure them, deceive them. The greater the risk; the bigger the thrill.
You seem to know a lot about it.
I had to talk to psychologists, there are
patterns of behaviour. Cycles… cycles of abuse.
- Were you abused as a child? - For Gods' sake! No.
This is the exact same thing that the lawyer asked me.
He claimed the courts would be more lenient if I had been abused.
But I haven't, I'm not one of them.
Mark is waiting for you.
I have a meeting I have to go, it's important.
Go ahead.
Why don't you wait in your car?
- Peter! - Okay!
You know this is a big deal, yes?
So listen, just… don't fuck it up.
We want you moving ahead into the future with us, yeah?
Okay?
Peter, you are okay?
Good.
OK, let's get in there.
What are you doing here?
You're a good swimmer.
You wanna race?
You'd beat me.
- Who was that guy? - Yeah, who was he?
Just someone I know.
Where did you meet him?
Around.
- Tell us! - Tell us!
He's a neighbour… a friend of my dad's.
Let's go.
Want a cup of tea?
No thank you.
Coffee?
No.
We got champagne, ice cream, caviar…
Thank you.
Listen, why don't we go through to the meeting?
or at least to reception? You shouldn't be here alone.
I'm waiting for Peter.
State your full name to the court, please.
Ray…?
Where did you go?
What happened? Why did you leave me?
Ray, can you hear me?
I love you.
That does mean we need to consolidate several positions.
Here at ETHGON We believe in investing not just
in ideas, but in people.
I'll pass you over to Peter and I thank you.
Right okay so its just, it's like Jen said
We're, um, gonna be
moving to w-working more with Northwest.
And, um… consolidating our futures together, new… new beginning.
I can't do this.
They want me to, um… to give you six names.
They want six names of people - Darryl…
Excuse me. I'm doing this.
Darryl. Darryl, mate, I'm sorry.
And Frank Stokes. I'm sorry, mate.
Peter!
I'm going to fucking kill him. Peter!
Peter.
Peter!
Scott…
What the fuck is up with Peter?
Nothing.
Hey, you think he's your friend?
You're on his list.
Yeah.
You should empty out your locker.
Get up.
How long have you been married?
I don't have time for this. Let's go.
Four years.
Do you have children?
No.
Poor woman; no idea who she's married to,
- no idea what you did… - She knows.
She knows?
I have to go.
How does she know?
Because I told her.
And she was fine with it?
Of course not, but I told her what my life was like then.
What was your life like then?
- I had problems. - Did You? Did you really? What kind of problems?
I made the biggest and most stupid mistake of my entire life.
Did you tell her it was a three-month stupid mistake,
and that you ran away with me?
I told her everything
because she loves me.
What's wrong with her then?
Must be something wrong with her. - Don't speak about her like…
Why not? What the fuck is wrong with her?
Pete!
This is my life.
I had to fight for this.
I lost everything.
Did you ever think about me?
What was happening to me?
You got out after four years.
I have been living this for 15 years!
Every fucking day! We never moved from that house!
I was talked about, pointed at, stared at!
I was attacked by your girlfriend!
I lost my life.
The only thing I did not lose was my name.
I had to keep my name.
Peter!
Peter?
Pete!
She attacked you?
A couple of years later, I was shopping with my mum. She slapped me.
Pushed me to the ground.
She used to say that you glared at her
that you were after me.
You used to hang around on the street
near the car.
You wrote notes, you'd put them under the windshield wiper.
"Your girlfriend is ugly."
"Your girlfriend's got a glass-eye."
I was shameless; a stupid girl with a stupid crush.
- You weren't stupid. - I was.
No, you weren't.
You don't remember what you were like.
What was I like?
You were headstrong.
Determined.
Wise beyond her years.
- No. - Yes.
Yes.
You were so impatient.
Sick of being treated like a child.
That's what children say.
What could I have possibly given you that wasn't my body?
What else could you have wanted? There was nothing else.
There was…
For me there was.
Do you remember the codes?
I used to ring your parents' house; one ring…
Meant that she'd gone out and you were on your own.
Car parked facing right; meet me in the park.
I could have stopped.
- I should have stopped. - But you didn't.
Whatever it was… Whatever I was thinking,
made me believe…
I loved you.
Crawling into these trees.
And pulling up my top and touching my breasts…
and unzipping your trousers and taking out your prick…
telling me to hold it…
and on the blanket you brought…
I thought it was to make us comfortable, but then
I realised afterwards it wasn't, was it?
It was so that twigs and earth wouldn't stick to my clothes,
so no one would suspect.
I didn't want us to get caught.
Every waking moment was about how I could get to be closer to you,
how I could talk to you, I was obsessed with you.
Used to leave work early, I'd come home
I'd work on my car, my car didn't need work
I do it just that I could be near you.
You remember.
We both knew the risks.
Have any of you seen Peter?
Una.
There were twin beds.
Don't.
Why not?
We both know what happened. We were both there.
We undressed.
We had sex on one of the beds. I'm not…
sure how long for.
I saw how much pleasure it gave you. I liked that I could do that.
We did it twice. Fucked… twice.
You turned me around for the second time.
We made so much noise.
We lay in each other arms afterwards and I cried a bit.
My parents would be looking for me. They'd be phoning my friends.
I don't even know if I came. Did I come?
I thought you did.
How could you tell? Did I make a noise? What did I do?
You, uh… Your eyes were closed, your face was flushed.
You said you wanted cigarettes. You were going to look for a shop, a pub.
I wanted to go with you but you said no, I was to wait there.
And you touched me and you kissed me between my legs.
You'd be back in five minutes.
I fell asleep and when I woke up I didn't know what time it was.
I was sore between my legs, but I felt wonderful. I was…
I was so happy.
And you'd be back soon and you'd have chocolate for me.
I didn't even have to tell you I wanted
you'd know what I wanted and you'd bring it to me.
I waited for you in that room, but you never came back.
What are you doing?
This room's private.
What you wanting?
I looked for you in the town. I looked everywhere.
I couldn't find you.
Did a man come in here for cigarettes?
- What? - About an hour ago,
- a man, for cigarettes? - I'm sorry, my love.
- Hey you cant be in here, my love. - I'm looking for my dad.
- What's his name? - Ray.
There's a girl here looking for her dad, Ray.
We got a Ray in the bar?
When did you last see him, love?
My god…
I felt sick, I wanted to die. I was never going to see you again.
Ray! Ray!
Ray!
I didn't say anything to anyone, I didn't say a word.
I told them that you hadn't touched me. That I'd run away.
And they asked me what you'd done to me, and when I wouldn't say
they told me what you done to me…
They drugged me and held me down
and opened my legs and took out your cum.
They said that you were only after one thing
and when you got what you wanted, that's why you disappeared.
I hate…
the life I've had.
You wouldn't know any of that, but I wanted you to know that.
Peter?
- Can you get out of her, please? - Oh, I'm sorry.
I came back.
- What? - I didn't leave you.
I came back.
- …and Blake's. - Thank you.
£2.85. Thanks very much.
- Thank you. - Lovely.
- Thank you… Thanks. - Have a good one.
Bye.
I needed a drink, I needed courage, because…
We were really doing it.
We would getting on a ferry, we were running away.
Same again, mate?
I just…
I just needed to clear my head.
So I went for a walk around the streets
and then… and then I came back.
She told me you'd gone.
Just run off.
I went to the car,
yelled out for you
because I thought maybe you were hiding.
But nothing. And I mean…
I started to fuckin panic where would you go?
Why would you go?
I did not know what the fuck was going on?
It did not make any fucking sense.
Then I thought maybe someone had got you.
That you were being hurt.
That I hadn't protected you.
Can I get a whisky mate, a double?
You got a daughter?
Yeah, I do, yeah.
Why? Have you seen her?
Well, have you lost her?
Yeah.
So what you in here for then?
Did she say where she was going?
What's your name?
What's your name, mate?
Come back in here! Oi!
No, I didn't leave you.
that's what the lawyer said
because he said it might sound better in court
That I was disgusted with myself and so I ran away.
It's not true.
I didn't.
I came back for you.
I'd like to um…
report a missing person.
Pardon me? A missing person…
Leaving me there, coming back; there's no difference.
Yes there is.
For me there is.
Pete!
Peter!
What's going on?
The lights…
they're locking up for the day.
We can't stay here.
Are you expected home?
Yeah.
I am.
Did you tell your wife…
that you were coming back for me, that…
you wouldn't have left me there?
No.
You haven't told her, have you?
Anything?
How could I?
You don't think she should be told?
I don't think we should talk about it.
- Can I meet her? - Don't be stupid.
How old is she?
She is a year older than me.
Is she sexy?
Does she turn you on, all that sagging skin?
What does she like best?
You are unwell, you know that? You need help!
You are sick!
- I'm not! - You are fucking…
I'm not sick!
I started at 6:30 this morning.
Have you got a job?
Just office work, it's nothing earth-shattering. It's…
not what I wanted to do.
What did you want to do?
I don't know, just, something else.
Do you still live at home?
With your mum?
If she knew I was here…
Do you have a boyfriend?
No.
I did think about you, growing up, what you'd be like.
I never wanted to hurt you.
Did you think about me then?
It's all I have of you, holding you…
touching you…
And fucking me?
Do you masturbate?
Do you come?
Yeah.
I can't.
I want you to.
No.
Why not?
I can't be with you.
Am I too old?
Pete?
- What? - What the fuck, man?
What?
What the fuck?
What the fuck? You fucking gave them my name!
You got me fired?
No, hold on. Who told you that?
Fucking Mark!
Mate, he's lying.
- He's lying. - He told me to…
Look, look.
Look! Your name's not on that. That's the list.
Mark's a liar.
Please just get her…
Get her out of here. Lock up.
Please. Can you do that? Just get her out of here.
Alright, we gotta go. You can't stay here.
Where is he?
Ray!
He's gone, he just left.
Ray!
He's gone, I've just seen him!
You gotta go, I need to lock up.
Do you want to go for a drink?
Could really do with one.
- Um, I don't know. I've gotta… - Just one drink.
Come on.
Just one.
Is this you?
There it is, do you see it?
That's our new life.
Yes.
Listen, why do you call him "Ray"?
It's a long story.
Was there something going on between you two?
You got anything to drink at your place?
Hey.
Peter?
Long day?
I must've… Oh, I must've dozed off.
Thanks you for doing all that downstairs.
Come here, lie with me.
I've gotta get ready.
Come on.
That's not full.
Oh shit. Sorry. Sorry
How's that?
You have a little…
You alright? Una?
It's okay.
I'm so sorry.
It's okay.
Don't be silly, hey.
It's alright.
I wanna go home. Would you take me? I don't think I can drive.
Yeah of course.
Where's home?
Peter's. I'm staying at Peter's.
You're staying at Peter's?
He's my Dad.
Are you serious?
I need to go home. He's expecting me.
Fuck, yeah it's um…
there's that party tonight.
I forgot.
You okay?
I just haven't eaten anything.
I'll make you something.
I'm fine, it's okay.
No, no, it's fine. I'll just heat something for you,
and then we'll get you home.
Yeah?
Una, where are you?
I'm fine.
I was on the point of calling the police.
You have no idea at all.
About what?
You were so desperate to hush it all up.
Una…
Please come home. Let me know where you are.
Please, darling.
Una?
Wow.
That's my girlfriend's.
Until a week ago.
You look amazing.
Will you come with me?
Peter's my boss.
Please, come with me.
- Hi, Scott. - Hello.
- Hello, I'm Una. - Hi, Yvonne, glad you could come.
- How's it going? - Yeah, good, how about you?
- Yeah good. Lovely to see you. - Thank you.
Here's trouble!
- This is Sterling and Hettie. - Hello, gorgeous thing!
Stop licking!
You'll drown her. Come on. Come on, girl.
What the fuck?
It's fine.
Let me get you a drink. Scott help yourself.
- Una? - Gin.
So how did you two meet?
Oh we just met around.
There you go.
Thank you.
Peter's outside.
- The garden looks great. - Thanks, I try to keep on top of it.
This is Una.
- You alright, Peter? - Yeah, I'm good, I'm good
Hey, there's someone I want you to meet.
Excuse me, love.
- What the hell is going on? - What?
- How did you meet Peter? - Oh, through friends.
Have you been together long?
Four years now.
Happy?
Sorry, is that the wrong thing to ask?
- We just got here. -I'm fucking serious, just get her out of this house.
- You're not her dad. - What did you say?
Is tonight something special?
Just a drink with some friends.
That's nice.
Hey, let's get out of here.
Yvonne, I'm so sorry, we gotta go.
- But you only just got here. - I know, but I just got a text, we've gotta…
No, I'm talking to Yvonne.
Sweetheart, we've gotta get back.
Love, don't do this to me, we've gotta go.
No!
I'm going to go to the bathroom.
We could be stuck up here forever.
I love you.
What are you doing in my room?
I'm a friend of Peter's.
From work?
No.
Do you know my Mum?
Not really, no.
What's your name?
Una.
What's wrong love?
Una?
Una? Una!
Hey…
Never. I would never do that.
Please don't.
No, please, Una.
I look after her.
I take care of her.
I mean. You've got to believe me, I've…
I have never desired anyone that age
…again.
I promise!
You were the only one.